[Every time she loses her nerve to talk in person until pushed, it's a bit of a bothersome thing sometimes. But she's rubbing at her face for a moment at the question, trying to figure out where to even start at this point.]

"A bit" is an understatement, honestly. [Even on the best of days.]

I just. I don't really know. I pretty much gave up on ever having any sort of relationship that was actually... good in whatever way you define good? Which didn't really bother me at the time, I guess, safer to keep everyone at arm's length and just have some... fun? Sure, fun. If the opportunity kind of came up, but it's gotten real fuckin' awkward lately when things kinda seemed to snap while not really in the best of states at the end of the month and I don't know if they remember what happened, I barely remember what happened, but something absolutely did happen and fuck if I know how to really handle this shit as this is the one person that was or is, I don't know, with someone so now I guess I'm dealing with some homewrecker bullshit now too?

[Damn, this is some word salad and she's aware of it.]

God, fuck it, it's stupid.